boys are so silly. the ones you don't like make you feel guilty for it. the ones that are your friends get jealous of the one who is more that that. the one you like confuse you because you don't know where you stand with them. argh argh argh. anyway, i had a really nice day today. drank abit too much, probably. probably made a massive twat out of myself. i got proposed to aswell, obviously i said yes. that was all lovely. meeting new people etc. seeing old ones. yeahyeahyeah. bit of a comedown on the train home though. some annoying twelve year olds singing lady gaga pissed me off. then some hooded youths in subway tried to chat us up, and we were like, 'narr, you're about ten.'. 

- SERIOUSSSSLYYY where do i stand with you? i don't know if you like me or not. when we're alone together it's so lovely, really, and then when we're in a crowd you just seem to disapear off with other people. maybe you're just a very social person. maybe i'm being too clingy? whatever. i like you. ps. yesyesyesyes, and i think i know you well enough, in answer to your question.

-i'm so glad we've made up. we won't be this silly again. i was stupid, you've always been a good friend.

-what is your problem with me at the moment? it's like you're jealous i talk to other boys when we've never been anything more than close friends. stop getting bag out over nothing and taking it out on me, as i have done nothing wrong, and it would be a shame to loose this.

-nothing. is. going. to. happen. between. us. sorry.

-i appreciated what you did for me today :) it was nice to have space, still knowing that you're my best friend. i love you, and i hope you know that, because i don't tell you enough.

xo

invaders must die

I decided no clothes suit me. I've been trying to decide what to wear on Saturday, but I have no ideaaaa. I want to wear the skirt and cardigan I wore last time I went but then wouldn't I look abit trampy? Then I decided the jeans I'm gonna wear instead don't go with vest tops because they are too low-rise and all my shirts don't go with my new cardigan I got yesterday. I may just decide to wear the skirt after all and save me all this bother. 

In other news, I think I like someone. I think he may like me too. This is exciting stuff. This makes me smile. Butterfy's ftwwwww;

oh, and I really enjoy doing the weekly Sainsbury shopping with my mum, I don't know why.

do you remember..

How you used to feel when your ball went over the fence into next door's garden? You'd stand at the edge, nervous and looking around to make sure your neighbours couldn't see you, and you jump over the fence, run through the garden, leaping over flower beds and garden ornaments, trying not to disturb anything. Triumphantly you'd grab your ball and make your way out of there as fast as you could.

How you used to subscribe to the Sabrina the Teenage Witch magazine and every week you'd receive new plastic, toy makeup which had it's own special compartment in the purple glittery makeup case you got with issue #5?

How you used to dance around listening to The Spice Girls in your parents bedroom, all dressed up in your Mum's dresses and high heels, plastering your face with her makeup to make yourself feel grownup?

How you'd spend the whole of the summer holidays playing out in the streets with the other kids from your neighbourhood? You'd play street football and stub your toe on the ground all the time, and every five minutes there'd be someone shouting 'CAR!' and everyone would rush to the pavement and wait for the car to go past. You'd play houses and you'd collect plants from your garden to make 'dinner' with. You'd use a bit of rope to tie a skateboard to the back of a bike and be towed around the block, and in the evening you'd sit and eat your meal outside because you didn't want to miss out on the fun and games.

How gathering together in the living room with your family on a Friday night to watch Top of The Pops was a weekly thing? You'd know all the words to every song and keep your fingers crossed the whole way through, hoping your favourite band would be number one.

Or was this just me?

i'm sick of this

i'm sick of this town. i'm sick of the area i live in. i'm sick of seeing the same things and doing the same things everyday. i need out, basically. where i live, it's beautiful and all, you've got the little villages and the beaches and the rolling countryside ecetera ecetera but i've lived here for the majority of my life and it suddenly seems so boring. i don't know, maybe it's just because it's winter but there never seems that there's anything to do. get up, see the same old people, go home, internet. that's basically it. i love my friends, the few that i know that i can really trust mean the whole world to me, but i want some new people for fresh banter. i look forwards to the days off school and off work when me and my best friend can just get on the train and go to exeter, which is our nearest city. i love that place. there are just so many people compared to where i live, and it's lovely  to spend the day with a group of fresh new people, just hang around and have a laugh, basically. the people there are lovely, really. at home you have your group of friends and you stick to it, other people are boring and hard to get along with. my friend was saying to me the other day how all the people we meet when we're elsewhere just seem so outgoing and friendly. i have to say, i don't want to move out just yet but when i do it will be to somewhere totally different to here; some big city somewhere with loads of people. it would make a nice change.

i'm sorry if this post went on, it was too long or whatever, and i apologise for the lack of good grammar and punctuation, i'm just really tired and bored. 

Bridge on Skins

I watched Skins with my Mother last night. It was the third time I'd seen it, (I watched it twice on Thursday.. in a row)

But it was just entertaining to see what my Mum had to say on the subject.

-"That Katie girl has a speach defect."

-"What a strange girl."

-"HAHAHAHAHA"

-"Awww, poor Pandora in the bathroom by herself."

-"WTFF Effy's supposed to be Pandora's best friend!"

-"It's perverted isn't it, how Cook knows how to have sex and not how to play twister."

-"Awww, Thomas is so sweet to Pandora."

Keep in mind this is the first episode she's seen. But seriously, should've seen her face during the sex scenes..

oh

I got a new book. It's called Host by Stephenie Meyer.

I'm going to go and read it now.

Oh and I got 10 followers today.

Win for Vit!

cupid's got me in his chokehold

{the only thing i really know: i can't sleep at night}

[he didn't really, he seems to have forgotten about me this year]