you've got a nerve giving me the cold shoulder,

giving me the twice over when it's not deserved.

and we'll talk again when you're sober,

you said that i've gone cold and our heat is gone.

i wanna be your eyes so you can't see what you've done.

i wanna be yours ears so you can't hear everything that's been missing.

wow.

my last post was nearly six months ago.

that is weird.

why haven't i been blogging?

i really have no idea.

i just read over every single post i ever wrote, and it's so odd.

some things made me laugh and some made me sad.

it's strange to think that the people i've gushed about so many times i've completely gotten over, i can see them in the street, smile and wave and it's just another thing that happened in my day.

most of them anyway.

there was one post and i recognised almost straight away who it was about, it made me smile :) 

the people i'd ranted on about, i've never been closer to.

how times have changed.

yet here i am sat, putting of chemistry work, just like i was the day i first started this blog.

woah :)

i've done so much in the past six months;

moved house, made friends, lost friends, started going running, stopped going running, lost weight, put on weight, started drinking coffee, dyed my hair, bought new clothes, lost friends, met amazing people who have changed my life, grown up abit, changed my opinion on the world..

and i feel asthough i've missed out on your lives too, really. i haven't read your blogs in ages.

how the hell have you been?! 

♥

sundays mean

getting up late. wearing over sized cardigans and pyjama shorts all day. pretty music. art. watching dvds. eating noodle soup. dreading monday. no makeup. thinking about last night. being tired. drinking lots of water. reading kerrang. scruffy ponytails. charging the ipod. looking at pictures of the weekend. planning next week. facebook. playing useless games on the internet. singing loudly. dancing around my room. not do homework. not being bothered. being lazy. procrastination.

things to do today

- finish makeup and hair.

- catch the bus with megan.

- go to primark and get that bag.

- see if there's a grey cardigan in the men's section and if there is, buy it.

- buy Grey Britain FINALLY

- find my friends.

- go to gig.

-not die.

i actually have failed the internet lately.

i do apologise.

i have just had

an amazing weekend.

and as i haven't blogged in a long long time, i feel it is appropriate that i write about it.

on friday night i worked, and got payed. that was good times. had an early night because i was up at seven on saturday morning. then i caught a bus with jamie into town and we met meg, cole and sian and then got the train to exeter. lucie missed it but her mum was going there anyway so she got a lift. in exeter we met more people. the weather was pretty shit and i was wearing a dress, so. but it was pretty hot for some of the day. then we got the train and got back into town around eight and me, sian, cole and jamie bought cider and drank it, and me and cole being lightweights were drunk of 1/4 of a litre. was a pretty funny night :)

next morning i got the train into town again because the new skate park was opening and the vans skate team and everyone was going to be there, so we went along. it was a really hot day so we were loving life. then cal and lucie had to go and get a train so we left the park and went to the green. jamie had with him a bottle of jd and twelve cans of coke, the majority of which he drank by himself. i didn't drink much cos i realised how easily i got drunk. it was a nice evening up until jamie rolled over onto his stomach and was sick all down himself. the rest of us were all sober, and we had to get jamie down the hill and home. we couldn't. 

in the end he called someone to come pick him up and we all went for our bus. 

it was really scary seeing him like that, he looked so vulnerable and it's like, he one of the biggest guys i know. 

BUT it was a good weekend. 

now i have alot of art coursework to do, but i really cbaaaaaaaaaa.

i have to draw a baby holding a phone with a lobster in my head for my initial ideas, my art teachers suggestion.

it's sunny again.

rewind.

Is there a song that every time you listen to it you rewind and listen to the same bit over and over again?

Or is that just me?

At the moment the songs are;

All Alone - Gorillaz. 

'Bounce, wiggle, bounce, wiggle, shakin' all them brains out,

chemical cutthroat, 'bout to blow their brains out.'

and, Antwerpen - Enter Shikari.

'It appears the foundations of all our great nations

are lies and indoctrinations.

So if Silvius Brabo collects the hands of giants

will you join him?'

I probably listened to that bit about fifty times in bed last night, ahha.

I'm getting really lazy at blogging.

I promise I'll do it more when I go back to school.

Which is tomorrow :/

Not looking forward to it.

I got my hair cut yesterday, good times. My fringe was getting silly, needed a good ole trim, so there we go.

Uh, i love my new job. It's at a chinese take-away, which is actually just opposite the indian restaurant where I used to work, so they're just stood in the window all night like D:::::: TRAITOR. But they employed like four new people after I quit, so this must mean I'm a massive loss, right? Three girls and one grown man just to make up for me leaving? I'm going to win at life for sure ;)

My job's basically to sit behind a counter watching television (tonight I watched You've Been Framed and it made me smile) and occasionally answer the phone or take an order. I get paid more aswell and they literally force me to take home food, so it's all good really :)

I'm only being trained at the moment because I have to learn all the abbreviations and prices and such, so I'm working with this other girl most nights, and she's really nice, which is a plus. My bosses are nice. So yeah, happy times.

Uh, I love school holidays so much. I've been waiting for this four eight weeks? Christ, I missed sleeping all day. Too bad I can't do anything Sunday or Monday, silly bank holidays. 

I've had a nice week so far actually, I spent monday with my best friend's boyfriend's friends, which I thought was going to be really awkward as I hardly knew them and had only met one of them once, and the other twice, but it was actually alright, and a pretty funny day :)

I don't really know what else to say, I've been pretty boring with posts lately, NO INSPIRATION GOD DAMN IT D:<,

Except, I love you. Oh and you of course.

And you, but don't tell anyone, alright?

Have a nice Easter :)